28/05/06 bad day

Whether it’s an incipient cold or my psychological shadow flexing its muscles, but in the course of the day I’ve lost all my normal resilience and optimism. Things like indecision, mistakes, software that doesn’t work, and – especially – losing something in the house – have reduced me to an ugly, hyena-like creature, which you wouldn’t want near you. Normal panaceas like meditation, soundscapes and even custard have failed. I have two options for travel, both of which would be luxury for most people, and I turn it into an orgy of self contempt and take it out on those around me, all because I can’t make a decision. I’m going to go to bed and hope tomorrow wipes it all away.

PS wasn’t Bad Day by Carmel one of the best singles ever?